During the first months of training for this violent endeavor, Zuhdi’s most persistent opponent had proven to be anxiety and nerves. Despite knowing he could make up for initial deficiencies through an abnormally high and disciplined work ethic instilled since childhood, apprehension haunted the young fighter.
“I remember how nervous I was as I was going up the steps in the boxing club,” Zuhdi recalled. “With each step, you could hear the sounds getting louder and louder in the gym—the bags being hit, the people sparring—with each step, my nerves were getting to me more and more. I mean, here I am, just a guy in baggy basketball shorts and basketball shoes. I had no idea what to expect. I always had an issue with trying new things. I’m a regimented guy, I like structure, I like a schedule, and I like to be good at things. I was stepping out of my comfort zone.
“Because of this, for the first couple of weeks, I remember being very self-conscious, wanting to prove myself to others in the gym. I needed them to know that I was not just another guy who was going to be in and out. That was my first goal—to just earn the respect of everyone in the gym.”
Anxiety had made the walk up the steps to Azteca a shaky one. Anxiety also made the step inside the ropes an adrenalized, focused rush. Zuhdi’s biggest obstacle before fights was also his biggest strength.
When trying to describe the proverbial double-edged sword, Zuhdi concluded, “I’m a very shy person. Always have been. With that, there comes a hesitancy to go out of my comfort zone and try new things. I get really nervous, which a lot of guys don’t like to admit. But for whatever reason, when I’m nervous, that’s when I perform my best. When I’m nervous, it’s a good thing. My mom has told me ever since I was young that I was hesitant to try new things, but once I did, I loved it.”
Seeing the transformation from tentative to tenacious was Przybylo. “It was very easy to just go back and forth and forget you’re actually supposed to be writing a story, too,” the writer said of early experiences and conversations. “You could tell how much he knew about the sport. He knew he was starting in the game incredibly late, but that wasn’t going to deter him. His heart was in it 100 percent.”
With each passing week and month, familiarity begat precision. Zuhdi’s frenzy soon had a focus. He tried to carry himself like a champion during all levels of training, just as his mentors had taught him. He could now give as much in the ring as he had received out of it.
“At first, they were lining up at the door to spar the kid with no experience,” Zuhdi said. “They wanted to take advantage of an opportunity, but it was by no means discrimination on their part. They would find out that it wasn’t much of an opportunity.”
Ready or not, Zuhdi opted for an opponent to make his narrative even more singular. Without one single amateur fight and entering his professional debut, he agreed to fight Rafael Torres, a veteran of 16 professional fights at the time and years of amateur experience before that.
The message was clear: Zuhdi was fighting for much more than his first win. He fought for peace of mind. He battled for respect. He waged war to show that he could accomplish anything and that potential trumps limitations.
He was now putting these inspired wars and his health in jeopardy by fighting someone who had been fighting professionally for over half a decade before Zuhdi even stepped into the ring. Everything was on the line. With all of these inner struggles and existential battles in mind, the battle of nerves would grow to be even more pronounced.
The return of nerves presented itself on the eve of the bout. Zuhdi confessed, “The day of the weigh-in, typically, you’re not supposed to do a whole lot. But Sean and Buck were big believers in what was called the two mile gut check, which was started by Pat O’Grady. Periodically, he would have fighters run 2 miles as hard as they could. You never do it the day before the fight, but I was so nervous. And I thought, ‘Okay, I’m going to do a two mile gut check.’ Looking back at it, I laugh. That’s how anxious I was. I had to do something. Nerves were a big factor in that first fight.”